Thanks everyone. It's just I guess why this hurt more then other times...we had 25+ cats at my house when I was little [which is my fault, bringing home strays] and they slowing started disappearing, I had one female with a litter that was sick from birth, I never knew what was wrong, but they all started becoming ill and dying when they were around a month or 2..... I knew with those kittens, but I didn't expect Rem to go. Friday, she was fine (except for her toe, but that didn't slow her down), Saturday she was still bubbly, Sunday-the day of her seizure-was the only day she wasn't her self. Even in her last 2 hours// She was still so excited to eat the CC and be petted. I never thought she would have to go.