Lost my lifelong dream

[mercynursie]

As many of you know,I have a geriatric quarter horse that I have owned for 20 of his 28+ years of life.I always dreamed of having a horse.In fact my life plan was car,horse.house.husband in that order.God blessed me with all of these gifts even in that exact order.Seeker Bar Bobby was my dream.Thanks to him,I bought land,built a barn and pasture all before getting my own home and my husband/daughter coming into my life.It was with a heavy heart and a river of tears that I had to put him down last night around 7pm.Originally we thought he had been chased by our mini donkey(who would pester him)and fell.I got him up,checked/cleaned and dressed his minor scrapes and brought him back to the barn.Called vet(he was coming out today to float the old fellow's teeth,vaccinations,etc) and he had me come get a dose of pain med for him.He had even pooped by the time I got back from vet's office,wasn't sweating anymore and was totally p***off when I wouldn't let him back out in pasture.Afternoon he was still doing great(I made hourly trips to check on him,hand walk).No signs of distress/colic whatsoever.When I went back over for my 6pm check he was down in the stall,wet with sweat and took alot of encouragement to get him up and moving while I called vet.Vet was out within 30 minutes,immediately gave him heavy dose of pain meds and checked him out.He was able to palpate rectally,and found what he felt was a tumor/lipoma that was probably strangulating the small intestine.The vet said unfortunately there was nothing to do but humanely end his pain and suffering.My mind knew he wouldn't make it long before my heart did.He had gone down 3 times on me during the wait for the vet to come out,he was shocky,sweating, and gums pale.Today we will bury him back on our property with all of my other beloved pets.My love for him was so different though I guess because now a lifelong dream has ended. RIP Bobby aka "my big bobushka".:cry3:

 

[addictedtochins]

I'm sorry. I have a similar story about my horse. Worked hard and earned money to buy her and keep her. Got her when I was 12. She kept me out of trouble growing up, I had be responsible and take care of her and my 2 cats. Picked North Idaho to move to because you could get acreage cheaply. This place is named Starlight Meadows after her, Starlight Ann. He had a great life till the very end, RIP till you shall meet again

 

[cuddlycuddles]

:flowers5:
RIP Bobby

 

[tunes]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I too have lost horses, too many horses, over the years either to age or illness. It is such a hard thing. I know we mourn when we lose a chin or a dog, but a horse is just something different, something special. They are such a huge presence in your life, when you walk out in the morning and see their head hanging over the fence, the quiet times when you groom them and talk about everything going on in your life. They just leave a gaping hole behind.

I am glad he found you and that you were able to have him for so many years. It sounds like he was very well loved and will be long missed.

 

[VolunteerChin22]

I am sorry for your loss!

 

[Megan]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am a "new" horse owner and dread the day I'll loose any of mine. They truely are something special.

*hugs*

 

[Ash]

I'm so sorry that he left in such a sad way, but he passed knowing years of undying love and devotion from a wonderful owner. He was a lucky horse to have someone so dedicated to him.

 

[cindyv3737]

I'm very sorry for your loss. He knew how much you live him and will always watch over you. RIP

 

[lauralynne]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[Godins Chinchillas]

I'm sorry for your loss. I know the feeling all to well as my cat passed away several years ago. I have cried, still cry, many times over the year. To this day I cannot bear to get another one. He was there for me, thick and thin. Always telling me when it was time for bed and would sleep with me till morning-underneath the covers. Animals can leave quite the impression on you.

RIP

 

[Jenn]

It is so incredibly difficult knowing the decisions we make out of respect and love for our animals, will pull so heavily at our hearts. You did what was right for your horse, but that doesn't make it any easier to say goodbye. I'm so sorry your heart is broken, but feel good knowing you gave him a lifetime of happiness. May he r.i.p.

 

[CJR]

You gave him a life most horses could only dream of... I hope you know and understand that. He's waiting for you at the rainbow bridge.

:heart5:

 

[suzi1780]

I am so sorry for your loss, our animals truly do become memebers of the family. I am happy he had so many wonderful years with you, rest in pease sweet boy.

 

[Dusty Foot Prints]

So sorry for your loss. :flowers4:

 

[Stackie]

I can only imagine. I've always dreamed of owning a horse..when I was little, our neighbors had a horse and I would ride my bike up to see him everyday. He was always standing at the fence waiting for me when he heard my bus drive by. He loved it when I brought him sugar cubes and apples. Even though he wasn't mine, we still had a bond, and I still miss him to this day.

I am very sorry for your loss.

 

[mishellyshel]

Sorry to hear about your loss. I have always wanted a horse, they seem like such amazing animals. And to live that long is such a bonding experience between pet and owner. I am sure you will miss him, but he is resting peacefully now.

 

[Sandi]

I'm very sorry for the loss of your beloved horse. I pray that you take comfort in the happy and wonderful memories you had with him for so many years.

 

[Laurie]

I'm very sorry for your loss--I'm glad to know he will always live on in your heart.

 

[emily]

:flowers5:
RIP Bobby

 

[3CsMommy]

*hugs*