I don't know what it is, but I just have to say something somewhere or I just might explode.
My brother is three years older than me and he is tall and thin, and has gorgeous red hair. I'm short and stocky with the same hair, in dark brown, yet all my hair is is a pain. For his eagle scout project he put up a war memorial in our old towns park, and everyone in town followed the story. Everyone knew him. It was all about him. I used to go to a ceramic shop, I loved it there because people didn't know him, they knew ME. But after a while, I started introducing myself as Trenton's sister. Then they recognized me. And we moved. It was a terrible move, I had terrible elementary school years and I finally had moved to a school I loved. I had never been happy, and I finally knew what happiness was. But when we moved I was moved back into public schools, and I hate them. My brother did too. He wasn't liked by the younger generations in our old town, but here he got popular. Everyone loved him. Everyone knew him. When I thought I finally got away from everyone loving him, it started all over. I'll never escape. A few weeks back a girl asked if I had any siblings, I said yes a boy at the highschool, when I said his name she knew him, what did she say? "Well 'Ginger' is so HOT! And you're so well...you know what I mean." I will never get away from it. He's always gonna be better than me.
The other thing is my mom always brags about him, she tried to do the same for me, but after a month or so, she ran out of things about me. I'm done with it. I guess I like reading everyone's posts here because I am surrounded around things that I love, and he's not here.
I guess this is kind of a lame thread but I just had to say something, he's getting his Eagle scout pin in a few weeks and it'll get worse. I should be proud of him, and I should be happy to say he's my brother. But no matter what I do he always looks at me like scum, I'm just so done. I don't know if I'm jealous or what, but I hate his eagle scout project, I hate his acting things, I hate that all his teachers love him, I hate that he's so smart, and I would be if 'I just applied myself' and I hate that I know that if anybody had a choice of my brother and me, no one would want me.
I'm sorry for the rambling. I couldn't hold it in.
My brother is three years older than me and he is tall and thin, and has gorgeous red hair. I'm short and stocky with the same hair, in dark brown, yet all my hair is is a pain. For his eagle scout project he put up a war memorial in our old towns park, and everyone in town followed the story. Everyone knew him. It was all about him. I used to go to a ceramic shop, I loved it there because people didn't know him, they knew ME. But after a while, I started introducing myself as Trenton's sister. Then they recognized me. And we moved. It was a terrible move, I had terrible elementary school years and I finally had moved to a school I loved. I had never been happy, and I finally knew what happiness was. But when we moved I was moved back into public schools, and I hate them. My brother did too. He wasn't liked by the younger generations in our old town, but here he got popular. Everyone loved him. Everyone knew him. When I thought I finally got away from everyone loving him, it started all over. I'll never escape. A few weeks back a girl asked if I had any siblings, I said yes a boy at the highschool, when I said his name she knew him, what did she say? "Well 'Ginger' is so HOT! And you're so well...you know what I mean." I will never get away from it. He's always gonna be better than me.
The other thing is my mom always brags about him, she tried to do the same for me, but after a month or so, she ran out of things about me. I'm done with it. I guess I like reading everyone's posts here because I am surrounded around things that I love, and he's not here.
I guess this is kind of a lame thread but I just had to say something, he's getting his Eagle scout pin in a few weeks and it'll get worse. I should be proud of him, and I should be happy to say he's my brother. But no matter what I do he always looks at me like scum, I'm just so done. I don't know if I'm jealous or what, but I hate his eagle scout project, I hate his acting things, I hate that all his teachers love him, I hate that he's so smart, and I would be if 'I just applied myself' and I hate that I know that if anybody had a choice of my brother and me, no one would want me.
I'm sorry for the rambling. I couldn't hold it in.