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tskoffina
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I love my boyfriend. I really do. We're going through tough times right now, and go about things differently. We can't really talk about anything. When I try to talk to him about our problems he goes on the offensive and starts listing all the things I do wrong in my life, like not being a very neat person, being a bit lazy about things. Things I know I need to work on, but shouldn't really have any bearing on our relationship. But we can't talk about problems between us. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my feelings for him and walk away, but mostly I really want to find a way to fix it. I want to find a way to sit and talk and figure out what we each need to do and a way to do it. Work out compromise maybe. I'll do this, if you do that. I don't know if that would really work. But I wish I could find a way to at least really talk it out. I want to try to fix it. He can make me so happy most of the time. He's usually so sweet, and funny. So caring about most things, but he doesn't understand that material things aren't that important to me. Time, memories, feelings, those are important. So showing up on a Friday night with roses (I'm not a flower person, he knows that), and then leaving to go home when he was supposed to stay over because he was tired and the animals wake him up, leaving his phone off all morning and forgetting to call so we could go to the Rennaissance Fest on Sat, showing up at 330, to late to go, he want's to know why I care so much, am so upset and inconsiderate about how tired he is, when he got me flowers. That was Vaentines day. I hope we can figure this out.
